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johnnyFive  ·  2682 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Ventski - December 2016

I'll certainly agree that 2016 sucked lots of balls belonging to various species. I'm not really sure that 2017 looks much better.

I don't have any one specific thing to vent about, more like overarching things. I mean, sure, I could point to individual things...I'm tired of my job and just don't care, but have 0 prospects for something else. Plus, I don't really know what a "better" job would look like. (I may have to find out, depending on the Republicans' long-term plans for us federal employees.) Being an introvert with an increasingly extroverted kid is draining.

But if it weren't those, it'd be something else. I can always find something, and have a hard time finding things to balance out the negatives. Most of the time I just want to lose myself in something passive, and little else really does anything for me. I don't get much satisfaction from, well, much.

So 2016 for me has been a year of realization that I'm not quite right in the head. I got looked at for ADHD (but don't meet the DSM requirements), although I'm certainly ADHD-adjacent (if nothing else, I maxed out processing speed on the IQ test I took, which would explain a lot). More significantly, the Wikipedia entry on dysthymia hit pretty close to home. I'm working on addressing all this, but of course it's a slow road.