I am trying to wrap up the immobilized part of my grieving and turn that into useful mobilization energy. Although I'm out of the states, I'm still feeling the effects. I'm worried about a federal hiring freeze. I'm very worried about my rights and the rights of my friends. But mostly I am worried that people will not stay motivated. I don't want this energy to have the lifespan of a single news cycle. I want to share the Pyramid of Hate to everyone who will listen because this is how hate escalates and people are already mid-high on the pyramid and being emboldened by the hour.

I've culled my social media pretty well so I haven't seen a lot of bad behavior out of people I know IRL and interact with regularly, but I do have one guy who somehow made it through my last couple of purges who I haven't spoken to since before I went to college. We worked together at my Jewish summer camp, which teaches and espouses all those feel good values like tolerance and acceptance (we march in SF pride, we do Holocaust related lessons, we talk about climate change, we march on SF for immigration rights, etc). And he's refusing to listen to many people explain why they are scared. It scares me to see other Jews not recognizing the very real threats we are facing. We are not exempt from this. Jews who identified as German first were NEVER seen as German and paid that price.

We are the generation who lived and I refuse to be the generation that goes down without a fight.