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coffeesp00ns  ·  1741 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: There's a Few Things About Me I Think You Should Know

I don't know if I fully fit in theme, but this is what came out, lil.

there are a few things about me that you should know.

   When I visualize myself,

I see a flower inside a vast cavern.

clinging to survival on the precipice of possibility,

the water droplets of hope washing my face.

   When I see myself in a mirror

on late nights, in half dark and in hurried glances

I recognize a stranger: not myself,

a tall Ent with a beard of moss

and a faerie held safe in his body.

   When I say "I have Dysphoria,

I'm depressed, I hate myself."

I am holding, in the pit of my gut,

a desire to tear off my own ill-fitting skin

like rings on a tree, stripping myself down to a smaller,

more youthful core, an attempt to turn back time

and right the wrongs of a life so squandered.

   But I don't do that.

   I thrive on promise, and hope,

and the sound of wind through the quaking aspen.

the emerald beetle bores its holes in me,

but I will compensate for the loss and be greater for it.