I'm new to reading about the things you're going through, so forgive me if you've already explained this. Why are you doing all these things? Is there a bigger plan to all of this? I have to admit that I got tired reading your list of stuff to do also. It seems like a lot. I used to love school and learning, so I would have energy for that, but the rest would have me down too. If you don't like school, that's even harder. Would it motivate you to do something if your reward were to lie in bed watching TV shows for at least a little while? Is there any other way to take at least an emotional break? It sounds like you're doing a lot and then expecting even more when that's done. I'm familiar with some of the feelings you're having, so I hope that things get better for you.