Sorry to kind of redirect your post OP, but is it odd for me to not really be effected by news like this?

Recently, someone I "knew" at high school, a kid who sat next near the group I was always with at the lunch tables, someone I spoke to/sat next to in class, ended up being found dead in the bottom of a lake, from what I believe to be suicide.

It's never really gotten to me. Hearing the news didn't leave me shocked, didn't leave me awed, didn't really effect me much at all. I knew the person, and now he died. When my mom mentioned it to me, I think she expected a bigger reaction, and I kind of had to come up with something to say on the spot to make it sound more like It effected me in some profound ways.

Maybe I'm exaggerating my lack of emotion, but when seeing stories like this, of people mourning after death like this, I can't see myself doing the same. Maybe I just didn't know the person as well as I thought I did, despite the person being "closer" to me than more than 90% of the people I know. I've always felt like I should be more profoundly effected.