That i am a goddamn miserable person who puts on a front to all people in order to conform to values that I dont agree with.

That the universe doesn't give a shit about me.

That while trying to remain uncynical I am becoming more and more cynical.

That questions like this will never connect you to other people.

Let me tell you a secret, well fuck it its not a secret.

"Do you believe in god" type questions about anything like big events? THEY WILL GIVE YOU NOTHING. The reason? Because people are more important than what they believe. Ask someone about a particular event or time in their life and you will make more friends and connections that you ever will asking bullshit abstractions.

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So I'm editing this and taking out some stuff that was here because it was personal and I was very drunk and depressed when I wrote it.

Suffice to say, because of the alcohol and the current state of work/family dynamics I had a bad day when I wrote this post. I'll keep the content as is except for the personal things that I really should not have written.

I ask that people who see this look at it with the introspection that we all have bad days and this one was particularly bad for me and I took it out on hubski's comment system.