Thank you for the support.

Good for you for not bending under the pressure and not apologising.

Do you mean that? I did do quite a few mistakes on the way, after all. While asserting myself has been a great idea, for it gave me the important momentum, I now understand that in doing so I broke my own rule of credit of respect, which proves me to be a disrespective person on the occasion, and it is not what I want to be.

You might want to consider the possibility of getting professional help.

I might, indeed. I've held up remarkable levels of discipline against things that might be of help to my mind so far, but now that you mention it, it sounds like I might end up needing it. I've always preferred to "help myself" rather than "use" anything (meditation, yoga, therapy, so on) because, apparently, it was supposed to show me that I'm entirely capable of doing my own fights, however grand they are, or to assert myself as an independent person, even though I'm completely dependent on others for most else at the moment. You can see the hipocrisy flowing over the edge.

Any particular advice in the meantime?