That's a lot to absorb. I'm sorry you had to go through the pregnancy especially. I can't imagine that being anything but a nightmare. It's telling that almost every one's mistakes involve their love lives. Objectively speaking, my biggest mistake is that I quit my white collar job at DaimlerChrysler a couple months before they offered all white collar employees of my rank a $100,000 buyout option. That stung. But we can't look at our lives objectively, can we? If I were to write about my biggest mistakes, it wouldn't come close to the top of the list. Certainly my biggest mistakes are all with women whom I loved and treated poorly for one reason or another (one in particular, but I don't really feel comfortable sharing all the details). It's sad, because life should be so much easier than it is. That is why it's so easy for your friends and family to have very good prescriptive advice in these situations, but also why we can never follow good advice. Reason and logic are meaningless in love (or lust).